I know it's been a decade since I have uploaded a post but don't and never worry, I'm doing very fine here. What the difference between now and then was that I have stored more than enough unhealthy fats in my body and never ever those were getting burned.
Anyways stop with those. Let's get back to the things that I wanna share with uolls.
...Failure is Never a Bad Thing...
I bet you have heard this sentence in your life before right? Be it once or million times. Yes, Some of you might already know that I am currently pursuing my Diploma in Nursing. Some might view it negatively and some might view it the opposite. However, I have to say that I like what I am doing and your negativity does not stop me from doing whatever I like. I heard too much complains and insult from family and friends whenever they heard what I'm doing. Is working as nurse a bad thing? No right?
Plus, to be a nurse is never an easy job. You have to face different patient with different characteristic and personalities that sometimes you need a break but never can. I've tried that once and I feel like hanging myself down. Being honest, I never find whatever I'm doing right now is easy. Being a nurse not only have to take care on the need of patient's medication but also the hygiene, we also have to learn and understand their emotions and there is a need to offer them comfort. It's not easy. In school we don't learn how to clean people's butt, we learn the proper and ways to prevent medication error during administering drugs, learn skills that you don't know, we learn psychology, sociology, biology, community healthcare, pharmacology and many others. See? It is not as easy as it seems.
And I have to say, I nearly give up. like literally give up. I sit for 2 trials on the assessment for the Wound Dressing and yet I still fail. I see all of my friends laughing and enjoying themselves while I'm here crying a bucket full regretting and reflecting on why I failed. Embarrass? Yes, definitely! But then I realise that I have strayed quite far away from Allah. I have less frequently do my solat and basically I have ignored my job as a Muslim. That failing does wake me up, it plays a part as a reminder for me to seek help from him and not other people. I cried a ton, I failed... I felt useless... However, cool mesti kene maintain. Mana leh tunjuk cengeng depan orang kan?
So, today I sit for my last chance paper and I did better that my first trial. Alhamdullilah... I guess that is a kind of reminder for me not to forget him...
However, I still have to thank my wonderful and amazing friends for staying put and help me in all the things that I faced. I thought I can face all this by myself, I thought that I am strong enough not to cry, but I'm wrong... Because they show me that I am weak to be left alone...
Firstly, I have to thank my wonderful and amazing lady that have stay and entertain my nonsense for the past 9 years. To be honest, I don't know that our friendship can last really long... When I get to know that I failed twice, the person I felt embarrass to share is her, my dear friend, but I don't know what makes me tells her and her answers make my teared up.
See, simple words can already makes me touch...
Kept on giving me the moral support and stay put with me regardless all the things I have face and did to her. We seldom meet with each other, but I know that we will still friends till we old. Thank you so much...
Being in poly makes me exposed to different types of people in life with different personalities. I am friendly but if I'm being to friendly, and I joke, I might just hurt someone's feeling without having the intention to. However, I have to say that these people that I met in poly are just too amazing to let go.
I cannot... too sweet...
She is my Burmese friend. Even though we are not so that close, she is so kind that she is willing to comedown earlier to school just to help me on my skill. She ask me and approach me first regarding the help. Thank you so much Grace for heling me. There is no words can explain how much I appreciate all the help that you gave me. And yeah, thank you for entertaining and go along with my craziness.
And lastly my great motivator and the one who keeps really calm even if I did a lot of nonsense to make her angry. You know how much patience she has on me. Can't be counted babybeh. She willing to stay with me till the night if I can, just to listen to my nagging and rants on other things, and she never complains. Yes, she is my ultimate grandmother...
Wait nope... She will nag at me! When I acted really unglam>.< OOpppsss! there is nothing I can do...
Lastly, the amazing wonder women who I respect the most. You know it's is not easy to be her. But because of her dedication to her dreams and study and of course being my friend (selitkan perasan sikit), she ever give up. hehheheh! Helping me a lot to buck up and continuous reminder to study, I really have to thank her a lot. Being able to feel accepted is the most important thing in friendship and she always make me feel that. Never look down on other people but instead trust them that they can do better than those who have background experiences. I really have a lot to learn from her, but definitely not that horh... Tepung...
See. that idiotic face of mine.
They always tell me that every failure always have a lesson to learn and there is always a meaning behind those failures I faced. Being disappointed and demotivated is normal especially when you are really at your down. However, having friends that understands and make you look at the brighter side are the most amazing friends that you can ever ask for. I know I am never good in expressing my thanks and gratitude towards you but, I really have to thank you mani mani on all the time you sacrifies to teach and guide me in this dfficult nursing journey. See, nursing is not easy but in Nursing, you can definitely find many good friends that of different background and attitude but they know what you need and what you want.......
Honest friendship
Love ya,
Icha Nisa
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