Free loader? Get lost!

The thing that I hate most in this world is free loader people. My hatred towards them is seriously more than my hatred towards anything else in this world. My definition for free loader is a lazy bum with loads of effing excuses. They always expect everything to be done without putting any effort on the things that they are working on. They only sit at one corner shaking their leg, chatting non-stop while the other group members are squeezing their brain doing the group work. Let me tell you my experience with this kind of free loader.

Situation 1:
Me: have you plan for the Home Econ thingy?

Lazy Bum 1: No. My computer working slow.

Lazy Bum 2: I'm busy with something else.

Me: Okay then, I will do the powerpoint slide. You both just give me you ideas and points.

No reply from Lazy Bum 1

Lazy bum 2: I don't know what to do. Anyway I am quite busy this past few days because my Grandfather's in-law die. I feel like kicking them hard on their face. making sure that they won't be able to come to school on the next day. I also feel like hitting them using this powerful transportation that can be found in Indonesia.

I won't hurt them badly but I will make sure they will learn from their mistakes. They think it is easy to make that project by my own self? HELLO! It's a group work yo! Not an individual work! We are expected to do it together, as a group not only me, Alone! Lazy bum 2 says he can't think anything as he said he is too busy and stress about everything. Hello! I just need your idea. That's all. I just need you to use your brain for just a little while and you can't do that for me? Haiyo! the more I think about this thing right, it will just make me feel more angrier towards them. Nevermind.. I should just forget about that and do my work.

Anyway people, I got to go and I hope you all have a good day tomorrow and always stay happy and smile always okay? :) Don't worry, I will always support you all no matter what happen. jap, ape yang aku cakap ni. Dah mula nak merepek lah ni.. Okay peeps, good night, sweet dreams!

Are you a Lesbian???

Today topic is so Attractive lah yo! So, am I a lesbian? That was the question I always receive the most when I'm in school... And what I'm going to say is .... NO! I'M NOT A LES!

The boys and the girls always wondered why I did not talk with guys... Correction, I do talk to guy BUT! to certain guys only.They must have misunderstood me by not talking to guys but actually I speak quite a lot to guy EXCEPT Malay guys.

For me, I feel really insecure talking to Malay guy. I can talk and express myself freely with my other classmates but not to them. Even though I, myself is a Malay  I don't know why I can't take to them like how the other girls talk to them. I feel really scared if I have to face them. I will only open my mouth for them if there is only important stuff that I need to tell them. Other than that, jangan berharaplah aku nak cakap ngan diorang.

I have reason for not talking to them. Therefore, I shall list down my reason for not communicating with them and I hope by this post, people will stop misunderstands me as a lesbian because I still like a guy not a girl. And that doesn't mean I critic the lesbian people. People have its own point of view. For me, I don't have the right to judge people because I, myself is not perfect, why bother to correct people mistakes if i still have many mistakes that still need to be corrected?

Reasons for not to be  able to talk to GUYS:

1.I really not able to open my mouth to talk to them. the only words that are able to spit out of my mouth is okay, hmm..., oh, no, and yes. that are the common word used for replying to their qn.

2.I scared if what I say might be a joke/humor for them. I don't know how to explain it in English, but I try to. These Malay guys in my class like to gossip more than a girl. I scared if I say anything to them, I would be gossiped by them. Guys gossip is so much different than girl gossiping. they are much more expressive in saying anything. At least girls know how to control themselves in saying anything as it might hurt the other party if they accidentally heard it. But guys is different. They just say what they wanted to say. If the person is big size, they just call her fat and that makes me feel scared of them. Their mouth have too much poison that could just hurt one in just one bite. I tell you a situation where I experience this.

I have a brother and my brother is really close with my classmates, Mr X,,Y,Z. They are really close. These guys is a senior to my brother in his CCA. I don't care about that lah because I can't prevent my brother to make friends with my classmates. But what I hate most is that, they like to talk about me behind my back. How I know? My brother told me everything. But I know there must be something that they say about me that my brother don't dare to tell me. I won't force him to tell me.  But people, do you see the link here? I did not even talk to them but they still able to talk bad things about me. What happen if I start to talk to them and talk freely with them? Won't they have much more stories to tell to my brother? Sometimes I don't understand these guys. What do they really want from me? I feel like cutting their mouth into pieces so that they won't be able to talk anything bad about people around them.

From here, I learn that not only girls like to mengumpat but guys love to mengumpat too. Hehe....

3. I like one of the guy in that group but I did not like to express my feeling just like the other girls will do. I prefer to keep that feelings to myself rather that telling the guy and also my friends. Because of that I don't dare to near them because I scared they might able to see that I like their friend. I keep a distance from him so that I won't act foolishly in front of him. I prefer to act cool than acting foolish by flirting and making nonsense cute voices because I know he would feel disgusted to hear that AND I will also feels disgusted towards myself.

Therefore, I hope you people who always mistaken me as a lesbian could stop that fake/wrong ideation. I'm a real lady as I still have feelings towards guys not girl. Rumor.. swaaaa.. swept by the breezy night wind.

I'm not here to have a bad point of view of the girl who like girl as I know you can't change you heart and tells it to not like this particular person. Everyone has their own chance in making their own life decisions. So, what I can tell you now is that. Listen to heart but follow your brain to make the right decision for your own life and also your own future.

Lastly, I want to thank those people who keep on supporting me in typing my novel. The chapter 4 is already out 3 days ago and the no. of reader has increase rapidly. I was really overjoys and I hope you will continue to loom forward on what will going to be happen to Fatinsya. Click to this link to straight away direct you to the chapter 4 page -----> http://www.penulisan2u.my/2013/01/novel-hati-yang-kau-sakiti-4/

Dear Thursday???

It's been quiet a long time since I've update this blog right? So, I'm back to update a new post. These past few days have been a hectic day for me. Project and homework were queuing up waiting to be done. To be honest, secondary 4 life is much more harder that the life I've been through during sec 1,2,3. 

I have received my Art O'level question paper and I was like, WHAT??!!!!! What am I supposed to do with these topic? But, don't worry I can do it! I need to be optimistic towards my own self!

During recess, I approached my brother who was sitting just 4 tables away from my seat. and when I was going back to my seat, there was this girl, sec 2, stares at me as if I did something wrong to her. She gives me the look as if I killed one of her family member. I smiled to her and just walk off. For your info, I know that girl. She is one of my junior in school. We never talk to each other. Yes, we do bump into each other. And... she is my crush girlfriend! But, I never feel jealous towards her. Not even little bit. But the main point is, why must she stare at me like that. Please lah girl, mind your own business! I did not even talk to your boyfriend or even flirt with him so, there is no need for you to give me that kind of look. I did not even talk to him even though we've been classmates for 3 years. I did not even dream to have him as my boyfriend. So, enjoy him yourself kay? I don't mind if people look at me. It really does not matter for me. But this girl is giving me and uncomfortable stare. When I eat, she looked at me. When I talked to my friend, she looked at me. When I laugh, she look at me. Jangan aku tengah buang hajat, dia pun tengok aku sudah!

It's not like I don't like people to look at me. It's okay for me, but please lah, don't give me that kind of stare. It makes me feel guilty. And she is pretty but no close to a beauty queen so don't and never act like one. You just labeling yourself as a bitch without you know it. Therefore, my advise is, stop staring at people that did not do anything wrong to you. Just keep your eyes to yourself! I'm not being bad or what, but it just inviting people to misunderstand you more...

Move on! Chapter 3 is already out in penulisan2u! I'm so happy! I just finished typing out my chapter 12. I'm planning to send out the chapter 5 by tomorrow so that they could post it up either next week or next 2 weeks. Anyway, for those who wanted to check the story out, you can click on this link -----> http://www.penulisan2u.my/2013/01/novel-hati-yang-kau-sakiti-3/ .... Thank you...WOW! I got to go people! bYE! 

Lot of love, 

Icha Nisa <3

What Can I Do If Someone Don't Like Me?

Live. There will always be enemy and friends. If you did not have an enemy, that means you are still lacking in trying to improve yourself. Why am I saying this is because, Friend that you are with now can be putting on their mask towards you. Yeah, some are really true friends but some can be fake friends. 

With the existence of an enemy, you will get to see which part of you that you are lacking. What side of you that they hate. What things that makes them don't like you. And the most important question that really needed to be answered is why they hated you. With this, you will be able to find the flaws in you. With this flaws, try to change and learn from it. 

When with friends, they tend to cover up your flaws. Am I right? I hope you get my point. They won't dare to tell what things that you are lacking. They will also won't dare to tell you what they hated/ don't like about you. By this, you will forever keep that bad habit. That's why, enemy is called the best and true friends than the people that you consider as friends. Because, they will always be able to detect the bad things and the bad side you have. Don't fear of enemies that attack you, but the fake friends that hug you. 

If people hate you, that means, there are things that they bothered about you... Take that point positively and make sure you make a change. If they still hate you for no particular reason, You can just say "I'll live a better live than you. So, if you are jealous of me, than work hard so we will be in the same position and level." and don't forget to give a sincere smile. Show that you are strong enough to face them and don't feels down just because they pass you a negative remarks. Anything, you still need to continue your life. Don't stop dreaming just because of those remarks. Anything, I hope you people will be stronger people and positive thinker. Hwaiting!!

Beside that, For those people who interested, You can read the teaser of the book (Hati Yang Kau Sakiti).

Untuk penerusannya, kita tunggu sahaja penulisan2u untuk terbitkan okay? untuk sesiapa yang menyokong saya, saya rasa sangat terharu dan sangat gembira. I will give my best in order to write a good book for you all. Terima Kasih kepada awak semua dan paling penting kepada Allah SWT.

Cuplikan untuk BAB 3:

"Asal dengan you ni! Main tumbul orang jek. You ade ke insurance nak tumbuk muka I yang handsome ni?" Farhan memegang wajahnya yang kelihatan merah itu. Kuat juga Masyita tumbuk dia.

"Kalau kau cakap tu pakai otak boleh tak? Korang ni harapkan saja kaya, muka cantik, handsome, tetapi otak kalah udang! Dah lah Farhan, macam mana kau nak betulkan muka kau tu, ia tak kan  buat muka kau handsome lah. Kekacakan kau tu dah terkubur dengan pewatakan kau tu!" Masyita menengkin. Tak pernah pun aku dengar dia setegas ini? Mukanya merah padam. Marah sangat kut.

"Sayang, I’m sorry. Perempuan gemuk ni yang mula dulu." Farhan menujuk ke arah  aku. Aku menundukan mukaku. Tenguk lantai lagi lawa lah dari tenguk muka kau tu.

"Wei! Please, aku jijik dengar perkataan sayang yang keluar dari mulut kau tu. Jom Fatin, kita gi keluar dari sini. Sekejap lagi kelas nak bermula kan?" Masyita menarik tanganku dan jalan melewati kumpulan pelajar lain yang sedang melihat aksi pertengkaran itu. Malunya aku, nauzubillah.

My Day :) O' level Results!!

Today feels a little bit different from the other days that I've been through. Firstly, I went back to my old routine. Dah mula nak pergi sekolah lambat. Hehehe! Luckily, reach school before 7.30. If not, stand by lah kena detention. School rule getting much more stricter than the past years. WTH! Nasib baik ni last year saya dekat sekolah ni. kalau tak kan, nayalah saya.

Starting with recess. Sec 3, sec 4 and sec 5 have to combine in order to have their break and it is around 40x7+40x9+40x2. Count yourself bcoz I don't bother to do the calculation. What Is This!!!! Besides that, There is only 2 Halal food store open. Most people will also queue to buy the food. There will be long queue. What's more is that, our break is only for freaking 30 mins. Is it fair for us as the students not able to get our food? Our break is only for 30 mins and our school time is being extended.  I really hate the new school rule, time table and everything! I really want the old time table!!! Please!!! No combine recess!! That's the only wish I have before I sit for my Mid-Year Exam.

Just like what I have mention yesterday, the sec 4's and sec 5's had observe the returning of O' Level results for the seniors just now in the afternoon. Amazingly, our seniors get the desired result that they wanted. 100% passes and our school percentage have exceed the national average. Most of them get distinction too. I could see that the hardwork that the seniors put had really been paid off. The results really tell us 1001 words of how much effort they put in order to score well... They were jumping in joy, shouting and screaming because of them felling really proud to be able to get what they wanted.

However, if there is tears of joy, there will also be tears of disappointment. Sadly, some of the seniors was not able to proceed in reaching up for their dreams. But, don't worry, there will always be a better way for you to reach for success. Success does not come by itself but, it comes with the hardship and the effort. Without effort, you won't be able to reach for the things that you dream for. Besides that, by thinking positive will also help more! Think that you can do it so you'll have the courage that you will able to do it. If you, yourself was not able to make sure that you will able to do it, than, you will forever won't be able to. It is all up to you. You are the only one that able to control your mindset.

Secondly, there will never be a success without a failure. By failing, you'll be able to learn from the mistakes and by that, you will learn from the mistake and make sure not to continue making the same mistakes over again. Yeash! Maybe it is hard for us at first, but one day, you will be able to taste the sweetness of the fruit that you harvest. Never give up! Stand up, Thinking that you can do it! And by this, You have to make sure that you will not repeat the mistakes again. Let's learn and become a better person and study well in order to make you happy and you parents proud of you.

Wow! My first post!

Yeah! Just made this blog. And I was like OMG! Jakon gile oi. So, It's my 2nd day of school as a sec 4 student. Skip all those lame stories out. Tomorrow, I will observe the receiving of the O' Level result. I'm really eager to see those situation. Feelings, expression. Tears of joy or tears of disappointment? For me, I'm not ready to experience all those stuff. Time flies really fast and I felt really disappointed towards myself because I was not making full use of my time during the past. Now, I need to work 100 times harder in order to be able to get a good course in Poly. Why is it not JC? Because... I don't want to have any P.E lesson anymore. I want my secondary school life to be the last place for me to have P.E lesson.

Plan for future? I'm not really sure about it. But what I'm really concerning now is that I need to really buck up on my studies and all my subjects. Hmmm... Besides of that, I would also like concentrate more on writing my book. So far, I already wrote 11 Chapters. Insyaallah, I will try to upload those stories into this blog. Anything, I will update here! I hope that the readers of Hati Yang Kau Sakiti will continue to support me. I will always try my best to put up a good story and I Promise that I try not to disappoint you guys! Will update you more!