And now, Ichanisa is back with a new blog post that I have been doubting whether to share it with others or not. I'm not so sure what is the outcome but hope that it will be the best platform for me to share what I have in my mind.
I have been wondering to myself. Who is the real Anisa? The one who like to laugh a lot, or the one who will stay quite until she or the other party have something to ask?
I'm confused. I'm lost. Now, I feel so different. I feel lonely easily. I feel like I need to have someone by my side to listen and chat with me. Why am I acting this way? From what I know, I never acted like this before.
I used to be the girl who are strong and never give a damn about relationship. Why? It hurt me so much when that he will not start the convo with me. It hurts so much when I feel useless of myself. I will wait and keep on fidgeting with my phone looking if anyone would whatsapp me. Damn! I sick and tired of this feelings. This drives me crazy. I wanted to look back and have the same Anisa again, but I just cant.
I don't easily cry. Keeping all my problem to myself and keep it bottle in my heart. But when that day come, I just can't help but to let go of the burden of the problems I have kept in me. I feel like crying for no damn reason.
I need to make myself clear again and make sure that I would not affect myself again. This is seriously ridiculous. I need to get back to my own self. What ever it is.
Love y'all.
##Ichanisa
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